Wasted time and effort

And so I managed to get an appointment to see the breast doctor again yesterday morning. Hubby managed to get leave to accompany me. We woke up super early and brought the girls over to my mum’s place. First to reach the clinic and was “scolded” by the doctor when she arrived. Oh well... like I said before, she’s more concerned about cancer. Mine is a minor issue that she can’t solved at all. Really put off by her attitude. Will not be going back to her anymore. I paid $130 to be scolded by her early in the morning. 

Anyway, the conclusion is, either I live with the pain and the lump till I stop breastfeeding or I can go drain out the fluid every now and then. There’s no way she can track where’s the source of the blockage and clear it. Is there really no one out there who can help me? 

Dear God,

Do I really have to stop breastfeeding my number 2? You are our Healer. Please help me clear the blockage and let me be free from the pain. Breastfeeding shouldn’t be like that since this is the nature that You have first intended for all mothers. So I lift up myself into Your loving hands. I pray all these in Jesus’ most precious name, amen!